I’ve been living in fear my entire life. Even as a kid I struggled with anxiety.
My mind always wandering, playing out scenarios in my head, worrying how things may go. And until recently it never occurred to me that contemplating the things I can’t control is hurting me.
How? You might ask.
Life is going to happen. Bad things are going to take place. Things aren’t always going to be easy. In fact, things are going to be excruciatingly painful at times.
Even if I spent every waking second of every day preparing and protecting myself from all of that pain, I’d inevitably still get hurt.
We as humans become so attached to this idea of how life should be, a safe bubble of comfort, that we forget how little control we actually have.
And when things don’t go according to our plans and our precious bubble shatters right before us, we have a tendency to shatter along with it.
When we lose control, we feel powerless, but in reality, we’re powerful.
Our minds are so incredibly powerful that we can overcome even the most earth-shattering obstacles. We just have to release control of the unknown and that’s when the magic happens.
I’ve struggled with this tremendously and it until my dog was recently diagnosed with a very aggressive cancer, I’ve really had to get a grip.
My dog is my child. I’ve spent almost every single day and night of the past 11 years with him. I bring him literally everywhere, every vacation, holiday, my wedding day, even shopping in NYC. We’ve been through so much together and the thought of not having him by my side hurts so badly. *tearing up as I write this*
But, I realized I have a choice. I can let it break me or I can let it heal me.
We always have a choice to view things in the light or to view them in the dark no matter what it is.
I believe that we’re put here on this planet to expand and the challenges that we face can be viewed as an opportunity for growth or an excuse to remain stagnant.
And it’s funny how life works. When I was faced with this dilemma and having to come to terms with the fact that this is completely out of my control, I’ve changed for the better. It’s as if this experience has helped me to surrender to everything and allow life to unfold naturally.
It’s a beautiful thing really, to let go, to be unattached. You begin to realize that life is magical and every single thing is happening for us.