I’ve always been insecure of my natural hair texture. It’s really thick, curly, and frizzy. Until recent years, I wouldn’t go anywhere without heat styling it. Having a bazillion smoothing products, a blow dryer, flat iron and a curling wand have been my security blankets.
It’s funny because I absolutely adore when other women have big beautiful hair, and I think to myself, wow I wish I could pull that off.
Getting closer to 30 I’ve slowly become more secure with my natural self. I’ve had more of a fuck it attitude, like why should I spend so much time trying to be something that I’m not.
When I was packing my suitcase for vacation, I thought to myself, I want to feel free. I refused to bring any hot tools and kept the hair products to a bare minimum of shampoo, conditioner, and curl cream. It felt liberating to swim in the ocean without fear of getting my hair wet.
And you know what happened? My husband, my mom and my friends (who all came on the trip) kept telling me how great my hair looked.
I’ve learned that I need to take a closer look at my insecurities and really question them. Is this valid? Where did this come from?, And how can I let it go?